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I suppose its been awhile since I have posted something meaningful. So I guess its time.
Things have been a little rough recently. I feel like everything bad that I have ever done - mostly hurt peoples feelings, be inconsiderate, and be intolerant - is coming back and slapping me in the face. I am not saying its a terrible thing, its just difficult. I have done more growing in the past few weeks than I have done in quite awhile.
I dont really want to go into much detail, for which I apologize... I dont want to incriminate anyone. But suffice it to say that I understand a lot better now how people felt, or how I made them feel, when I wasnt mature enough to understand what I was doing. Its a bunch of rough little lessons I am learning right now... and im glad for it, but it still sucks.
Maybe this post is not as "meaningful" as I wanted it to be, due to the nature of what I am learning and my desire not to mention any names... but lets just say im changing, and its for the better I think.
In other news, I started school at PALCS. I love it so far... the people are nice, the technology is cool... I am sure I will be in over my head at points, but I believe it will be much more managable than Renaissance. Ive bonded a bit with the other new science teachers, who are 24 and 23... so I think its a good thing. There are a lot of women, but quite a few men... but pretty much everyone I have come across from either gender is young and married and expecting a baby or having one really soon. Its not the best environment for me mentally, but as long as I stay in my cube I should be just fine. I like what the school is doing in general, and I think I could make a difference there. My biggest challenge is going to be staying off of im, myspace, email, and here all day. wish me luck.
Things have been a little rough recently. I feel like everything bad that I have ever done - mostly hurt peoples feelings, be inconsiderate, and be intolerant - is coming back and slapping me in the face. I am not saying its a terrible thing, its just difficult. I have done more growing in the past few weeks than I have done in quite awhile.
I dont really want to go into much detail, for which I apologize... I dont want to incriminate anyone. But suffice it to say that I understand a lot better now how people felt, or how I made them feel, when I wasnt mature enough to understand what I was doing. Its a bunch of rough little lessons I am learning right now... and im glad for it, but it still sucks.
Maybe this post is not as "meaningful" as I wanted it to be, due to the nature of what I am learning and my desire not to mention any names... but lets just say im changing, and its for the better I think.
In other news, I started school at PALCS. I love it so far... the people are nice, the technology is cool... I am sure I will be in over my head at points, but I believe it will be much more managable than Renaissance. Ive bonded a bit with the other new science teachers, who are 24 and 23... so I think its a good thing. There are a lot of women, but quite a few men... but pretty much everyone I have come across from either gender is young and married and expecting a baby or having one really soon. Its not the best environment for me mentally, but as long as I stay in my cube I should be just fine. I like what the school is doing in general, and I think I could make a difference there. My biggest challenge is going to be staying off of im, myspace, email, and here all day. wish me luck.
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