holiday time

Christmas time again... but there is something about having a real job which makes the holiday season seem a lot less magical and cozy.

Sure, they have been playing Christmas music since Thanksgiving... and we have had our Christmas tree up for about 2 weeks... yes, all the stores are decorated, and the lights are strung up... all of my shopping is completed and wrapped... some presents already given and received...

But it is just not the same. Being grown-up somehow seems to mean that you get to enjoy the season less.


And it does not even remotely help that it is not cold out.


I used to love sitting in front of the fire with a book, drinking tea, enjoying the glow of the Christmas tree... and I have not gotten to do that once so far! My mom did not even decorate this year... not that I blame her. But I remember being absolutely thrilled when the Christmas decorations came out and we put up snowmen everywhere and garlands on the hearth... we did not even put out our Nativity this year!!! It makes my heart so heavy when I think of how exciting my mom used to be over us kids enjoying the season... she always did the decorations for us, and somehow its like we are old enough now that we do not "need" it... bleh, I dont feel like growing up!!!



I hope that when I have my own family that I can take the time to enjoy the season... to always make time to pick out a tree and cut it down with the kids, to decorate, to bake cookies together, to sit in front of the fire, to put on Christmas music and dance. I miss dancing!!!

It is not to say that I have not gotten any of that this season... I have... even some dancing... but it is just not like it was.


I have the rest of the week "off". I say it like that bc I plan on posting some lessons for school and I am working at the hospital on Christmas, Wed, Thurs, and New Years Eve. Then it is back to school in two ways... teaching and grad courses at WCU. Perhaps I did not mention that before - I got accepted into their Masters program. Big whoop. For some reason, I thought it would mean more to me... getting my undergrad at PSU... getting my masters at WCU... I thought it would be special to me... but it isnt. I did not even have a graduation party when I finished college. I thought to myself that I would have one after I got my masters, but I am thinking that I probably wont. Maybe after I am Dr. Samuels. hehehe... yeeeeaaahhhh... :)


Merry Christmas my loved ones.