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It is Thursday around 6. For some reason, I decided it would be a fun idea to work a full day at school and then work some more at the hospital. At this very moment, I happen to be yawning and wondering what the heck I was thinking.

All said and done, it has been a VERY easy time tonight, so I really should not complain about the extra dinero. I appreciate the flexibility of the hospital... I am now allowed to work partial shifts since someone got fired. Mwa ha ha.


I mean, it is bad for them and all, and I really do feel sorry for them, but it definitely frees up some hours for me to snatch up.
Tomorrow I will stop in for some training, and then Sat I am working from noon til 11:30pm. Fun fun.



This week has been pretty slow, somewhat dragging. Coming back from spring break is always a bummer and I am not all that motivated to do work. I have had some encouraging moments today, though.

One student told me that even though she plans on being a writer, she has liked Biology so much that she is definitely going to take a Biology class in college.
Another student sent me an "Awesome Teacher Award". Hehe.
I also had a few conversations with my youngest student, an 8th grader, who is 13 and sees a life of endless possibilities before her. She is a GREAT kid, and I hope that my kids can grow up like her.


I finished grades this week, and was pleased to see that only 20% of my students failed this marking period. Out of that 20%, there are probably only 5 of them that actually try and struggle and need my help... the rest do not do a darned thing. So I feel pretty good about that. Most of my kids have been doing really super well, though it helps that Zoology is a breeze and it is something they can relate to more than theoretical genetics.


Time continues to move quickly, as we are almost halfway through April. Things will continue to get busier as I go on a few school trips (to NYC for a few days, to proctor PSSAs again, Dorney Park, Hershey Park, prom???) and get ready to travel this summer.

The more I think about it, the more scared I am for Montana. It will be me, my mom, my 3 aunts, and my cousin. They are already trying to figure out how much to pack and how many cars we will need. We will only be gone for a week!!!
It seems like it will be a lot of fun.... but that is a LOT of estrogen... and a 40 year span of ages. There is me at 25, my cousin at 32, my aunt at 42ish?, other aunt at 50, my mom at 54, and my other aunt at 64. Or something like that.

Ugh, its like sisterhood of the traveling pants or some other type of girly road trip movie. I guess I will have to borrow the video camera from Jon. :)




Let's see... what else?

I have been a bit antsy lately, but I think it is because I have not been to "my" church in awhile. Between traveling, worship team for camp, getting sick, etc... I just have not gone. Sundays are cherished sleep days anyway, when I get them.

Whenever I spend time away from church or bible study, this feeling of discontent and disconnect starts growing in me. In the past, I have realized it all too late... but I am (dare I say!) getting mature enough to know that the empty feeling is distance from God.

Over the past few years, my need for a relationship with God has grown considerably... to the point where I need it in my life, I need it in my relationships, and would love to have that with my friends.

It is strange to me that while my friends are so close, we are a bit distant in that area... it is just something that goes unspoken.


I was relating to a woman in my bible study that I have a hard time spiritually sometimes because I really do not have anyone to TALK to about it. I mean, yes, of course, the women of my bible study... but they are all older than me, married, kids... Their perspective is, of course, extremely valuable, and I treasure it. I am so blessed to have these women in my life who pray for me and hope for me.

Yet, it would still be nice to have a peer group of those women too.

I have also been having somewhat of a difficult time because although I would like to get more involved with the church I (try to) attend, E happens to be doing the same thing, and that sort of pushes me away. The last thing I want to do is to stifle his spirituality again. And I feel like, in a sense, he needs those close relationships even more than I do right now. At the same time, however, I really WANT to get to know people there. But how could I go to the 20's ish age bible study when he is there? Especially because I know that it is only like 5 people? It would just be really hard on us both, I think.

Anyway, I need to do something, and I think in the next school year (incredible to think I think that far ahead) I will join one of their women's bible studies once I wrap up Hebrews. It would do me good. I hope.



Time to go home...