happy anniversary?
As I came into work last night, I went into hematology. The supervisor to heme was still hanging out, and like usual she asked me how things were going.
The women in heme are all like little mothers to me. They call me "baby" because I look so young, and I am indeed still (after 3.5 yrs) the youngest med tech in the lab. They have seen a lot of ups and downs in my life over the past few years... and nearly all of them are divorced. So they are quite cynical about relationships and men in general.
Anyway, for quite awhile I was coming into the lab with what they considered "juicy gossip" - that is, the soap opera that was my life for the past year and a half. The saga between J & E was of great interest to them... mostly because they were rooting for J.
When I told them I was moving to Florida, they always questioned it. They felt I was not actually going to go. Well, they were right.
When I talked about J, they saw how I lit up and could not help but smile... and they gave me that knowing glance and told me to just get on with it.
So often, now, when I walk into heme, they cautiously ask if everything is going well and if I am happy. Of course I respond that it is and I am!
Last night, however, they brought up the day that E broke up with me. It was a Sat. The heme supervisor had been working that day, I was in Chemistry.... one of the girls from Chem was there too. I walked in and just absolutely fell apart. I almost made them cry. K (the super) laughs recalling it, because she said I was just so incredibly sad, it seemed like I would never be happy again. I never thought that, but she was right, I was pretty devastated.
Actually, it was July 8th of last year that it happened. The funny thing is that I thought on July 8th of this year, I would be sad and reminiscing and missing E.... and.... well, I wasnt. It passed by without me even realizing it was the anniversary to our breakup. In fact, what would have been our 4 yr anniversary if we had kept dating also passed without me realizing it and without me feeling sad.
The girls at the lab kept saying how I am all smiles now... and of course it has turned to them asking me if I am going to "marry this guy".
I know I often talk about the difference a year can bring. And I maintain it is true! Look at where I am compared to then!
It makes me wonder, too, where I will be a year from now...
July of 2008, what will that be like? Where will I be living? It certainly will not be here. I will hopefully have finished my masters then. Will I still be at PALCS? Will I be traveling with P2P next summer? Who knows, who knows?! :)
Regardless, there are good things ahead... hurtful things behind. Thank goodness time keeps plodding along even if I think sometimes it has stopped.
The women in heme are all like little mothers to me. They call me "baby" because I look so young, and I am indeed still (after 3.5 yrs) the youngest med tech in the lab. They have seen a lot of ups and downs in my life over the past few years... and nearly all of them are divorced. So they are quite cynical about relationships and men in general.
Anyway, for quite awhile I was coming into the lab with what they considered "juicy gossip" - that is, the soap opera that was my life for the past year and a half. The saga between J & E was of great interest to them... mostly because they were rooting for J.
When I told them I was moving to Florida, they always questioned it. They felt I was not actually going to go. Well, they were right.
When I talked about J, they saw how I lit up and could not help but smile... and they gave me that knowing glance and told me to just get on with it.
So often, now, when I walk into heme, they cautiously ask if everything is going well and if I am happy. Of course I respond that it is and I am!
Last night, however, they brought up the day that E broke up with me. It was a Sat. The heme supervisor had been working that day, I was in Chemistry.... one of the girls from Chem was there too. I walked in and just absolutely fell apart. I almost made them cry. K (the super) laughs recalling it, because she said I was just so incredibly sad, it seemed like I would never be happy again. I never thought that, but she was right, I was pretty devastated.
Actually, it was July 8th of last year that it happened. The funny thing is that I thought on July 8th of this year, I would be sad and reminiscing and missing E.... and.... well, I wasnt. It passed by without me even realizing it was the anniversary to our breakup. In fact, what would have been our 4 yr anniversary if we had kept dating also passed without me realizing it and without me feeling sad.
The girls at the lab kept saying how I am all smiles now... and of course it has turned to them asking me if I am going to "marry this guy".
I know I often talk about the difference a year can bring. And I maintain it is true! Look at where I am compared to then!
It makes me wonder, too, where I will be a year from now...
July of 2008, what will that be like? Where will I be living? It certainly will not be here. I will hopefully have finished my masters then. Will I still be at PALCS? Will I be traveling with P2P next summer? Who knows, who knows?! :)
Regardless, there are good things ahead... hurtful things behind. Thank goodness time keeps plodding along even if I think sometimes it has stopped.
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