Procrastination = How Its Made
How Its Made is an awesome show. I just learned how they make tofu and fireman boots. Why, praytell, am I watching How Its Made at 9:50 on a Thursday morning? Because I am home studying for my comps exam on Sat.
...or at least trying to...
Okay, I am not trying very hard at all. I did, however, get 10 hours of sleep last night, which was MUCH deserved. I also ran a lot of errands yesterday, which did make me feel like a productive member of society. I feel like reality of my life has not struck yet. I never got sad about moving out of my childhood home (and I have been out for 2 months now)... I miss my Lily, but that is about it. It still feels like Jon is going to "go home" any one of these days.... It still has not hit that I am stuck with him forever. (Not that it is a bad thing!)
As I have said before, 2008 has been a total whirlwind... the schoolyear went by quickly, then summer had me looking for houses, then getting an apartment, moving in, and finishing wedding plans while working part time at the hospital and taking two grad classes. Then school started and it was a blur until the wedding. (By the way, we have almost been married a month, WHAT?!?!?!??!) The wedding was the best time I have ever had in my whole life so far, and then it was over. Since then, my focus has been on my (awful) grad class and my comps which are on Sat.
As I was saying to Jon's sister in an email this morning, none of it has really hit home and I wonder if once Sat is over, reality will strike with mighty hammer-like strength. Will I just need to cry? I am not sure. I just keep going and going...
I am sincerely hoping that my comps are the last thing I really need to worry myself over for a long time. I mean, I will still be busy... school, hospital, evil grad course, honeymoon, graduation!... but those things do not necessarily require much effort on my part to happen. Well, except the evil grad course. But I suspect that, too, will be easier once I have less to concentrate on.
Anyway, I am really looking forward to it. I anticipate enjoying this time with Jon as we figure out what exactly it means to be married. :)
In the meantime... I ought to study. Just three more days of this.
...or at least trying to...
Okay, I am not trying very hard at all. I did, however, get 10 hours of sleep last night, which was MUCH deserved. I also ran a lot of errands yesterday, which did make me feel like a productive member of society. I feel like reality of my life has not struck yet. I never got sad about moving out of my childhood home (and I have been out for 2 months now)... I miss my Lily, but that is about it. It still feels like Jon is going to "go home" any one of these days.... It still has not hit that I am stuck with him forever. (Not that it is a bad thing!)
As I have said before, 2008 has been a total whirlwind... the schoolyear went by quickly, then summer had me looking for houses, then getting an apartment, moving in, and finishing wedding plans while working part time at the hospital and taking two grad classes. Then school started and it was a blur until the wedding. (By the way, we have almost been married a month, WHAT?!?!?!??!) The wedding was the best time I have ever had in my whole life so far, and then it was over. Since then, my focus has been on my (awful) grad class and my comps which are on Sat.
As I was saying to Jon's sister in an email this morning, none of it has really hit home and I wonder if once Sat is over, reality will strike with mighty hammer-like strength. Will I just need to cry? I am not sure. I just keep going and going...
I am sincerely hoping that my comps are the last thing I really need to worry myself over for a long time. I mean, I will still be busy... school, hospital, evil grad course, honeymoon, graduation!... but those things do not necessarily require much effort on my part to happen. Well, except the evil grad course. But I suspect that, too, will be easier once I have less to concentrate on.
Anyway, I am really looking forward to it. I anticipate enjoying this time with Jon as we figure out what exactly it means to be married. :)
In the meantime... I ought to study. Just three more days of this.
posted by FireWithin at 9:50 AM
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